My last job in the corporate world left a bad taste in my mouth. Up until that point, I had a wonderful work experience and got to work with and for some really great people. Then when I worked at what is now my last job in the corporate world, my lucky work streak had ended. I was under-appreciated and not being utilized for my actual set of capabilities. The person I worked for was verbally abusive and quite honestly, a sexist. I would wake up in the morning and dread going to work. When that chapter of my work life finally came to a close, I decided that life is too short to wake up miserable and not look forward to the day ahead.
DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY.
So that’s what I did! That included becoming a group fitness instructor. After having my daughter, while many things evolved, my passion for teaching classes has never changed. After my girl was born, I told myself that I shouldn’t feel guilty about leaving for an hour or so to teach a class. It was something that made me happy outside of being mommy all day. There were times during the past 4 years that I would feel guilty leaving her, whether it be because she was sick or just didn’t want me to go. But after I got to the class, felt the music and saw the people who show up for me week after week, year after year, I would get the overwhelming sense of gratitude. I was doing what made me happy.
Beginning this fall, things will be different. My little one will be at school 4 mornings of the week. My current schedule was created so that I would be home with her during the day and then teach classes in the evenings. However, with her out of the house most mornings, I would like to switch up my schedule in order to be home with her at night. I struggled with this because I have taught most of my classes for years. Same days, same times. Same great and inspiring people. My fitness family. To give up any of these classes would be sad.
I expressed my thoughts to some of my class participants after class one day. They said they would petition if I left! I laughed but it was very humbling that these people felt so strongly about me continuing to teach their class. I started to stress about which classes I would leave or switch out. I stressed about disappointing people. I stressed about giving up those classes that have always made me happy.
Then I stopped. The reason I want to try to change my schedule is for my daughter. To spend more time with her. Time that won’t always be there. Time that I’ve taken for granted these past 4 years since she’s always with me. Time that has already gone by too fast. I can’t think of anything that would make me happier than to spend that precious time with her. It’s not about giving up what makes me happy, but how what makes me happiest has changed. Yes, it’s hard to leave people who inspire you, who you’ve shared milestones with and who have embraced you into their lives. But as I try and determine the new schedule, I have the same thought in my head as I did all those years ago after my last corporate job.